Follow up

March 8th I had my follow up appointment with my Doctor. I was advised that I have healed nicely and we can start trying again in approximately 4 months.

We aren't sure if we are ready to "try again" yet. This has been more emotional then we had thought. I'm still trying not to get upset when I see babies or pregnant women. We are taking things one day at a time. But we do talk about trying again.

The doctor said that miscarriage happens to 30-40% of pregnancies. And that the next time I should have a healthy pregnancy and baby. So we'll see.

I went back to work today...1st time since we were told we miscarried. It was a lot harder than I thought it would be. More emotional than I thought it would be. When I got there I started to cry...not in front of any one....just an emotional outburst...no idea where it came from or why I cried. Then I calmed down and the rest of the day went fine...except for a few people that hadn't been told who asked how the baby was...and a few that wanted to say sorry to me...sometimes its overwhelming to talk about over and over again...I did my best.

I don't get back on the phones until tomorrow...so all in all it was a relaxing day. I do wish I had one more day to adjust...but maybe it will be good to just jump in.

Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday!!! Then at least I'll have the weekend to relax no matter how tomorrow goes.....

I found out that the next book to a series I've been reading called Evernight (vampires of course) isn't coming out until spring 2010!!! I can't wait!!! Seems like forever!!! But I'll live.....I'm currently reading the Vampire Diaries...its a lot of fun to get lost in and since Todd will have friends over to watch Golf on the flat screen this weekend...reading is what I'll be doing. ; )

more entries to come....